Everyone knows goodbyes are difficult.

At the same time, everyone's telling me to be strong and that it isn't the end of the world.
I guess it isn't, sort of.

But then again, everyone knows I'm emotional and irrational. And it doesn't take a lot to make me cry. Sometimes I cry while watching America's Got Talent. Go ahead, laugh. I'm not really in the mood to care right now.

If you don't already know, Miles is enlisting today. Which I know to some people, is no big deal. But okay it is to me. I have never dealt with this before, and I don't know what to do. Other than lie in bed and cry my eyes out. Sounds like a whole bundle of fun to me. Oh and with the company of strawberry cheesecake ice cream of course. Even the weather suits my mood today, grey and stormy. Perfect for hibernating the entire day with just my tears and heartache. Call me theatrical or whatever but I am entitled to this okay. Leave me alone if you don't understand or think I'm being retarded. I don't really care.

I'm going to miss you so much. Even, right now. My heart hurts, literally. I'm trying to smile and make it easier for everybody but it feels so wrong. It takes SO MUCH EFFORT TO SMILE. Okay I think I need to stop ranting. Just stop.

So anyone reading this, call me, text me, ask me out or whatever. Just distract me and help me make time go by quicker. I don't think I can be alone right now.

I realised, this post, is LONG OVERDUE. Hahaha no idea why I've been so shit ass lazy to update and all. Might have been just a phase I suppose. But anyway hiiiiii I'm back :D

Anywaayyyy there is much to blog.

The holidays came, and went. No actually, they didn't just come and go. They came and FLEW past. I have no idea where all the time disappeared to. I had TWO WHOLE MONTHS of holidays and they basically disappeared into thin air. Okay actually no wait. I do know where the time disappeared to. Went to Rome and Hong Kong, rest of the time, I was just going crazy and having fun with my friends. Hahaha. I actually did surprisingly okay in Hong Kong so that was pretty awesome. Even managed to club after our event so that was funnnn. This holiday was pretty mad, I don't think I've ever had this much alcohol in my system ever. The alcohol is probably still stuck somewhere in my liver or something. Think I'm gonna die young ):

Now here's the sad part, school, again. SCHOOL ): Now why can't I just bum around my entire life. Oh right because I need money to do that and if I don't get a job I won't have any money and if I don't go to school, I won't be able to get a job. Sigh. Life is harsh. Hahahahah I sound so depressed just because of school. Well, kinda. It's THIRD YEAR, FINAL YEAR. Omg I can't believe I'm in my last year of poly and I'm a senior. I feel so OLD. Mannnnn. So much shit load of work this year. On top of our normal daily class work and all, we have FYP and PD to deal with. Wtfomfgbbq. Life sucks even more now. I bet I am going to have like no life this year. Growl. It's okay, in the words of Grace, I am going to SUCK IT UP AND TAKE IT LIKE A MAN. Hahahahaha.

Okay hehehe, most important update. I met someone really really special during the holidays. His name is Miles Thng Quong Wei <3 Okay very tempted to type in more giggling here but I realised I probably already sound super gay so I should stop. Before everyone pukes in front of their screen. We met more than a month ago, and ever since then, I've just been really really happy. We've been literally spending every single day together. It's insane but I love it. It's been awhile since I've felt like this. So heads over heels, stupidly, happily, in love. I don't feel like myself sometimes, because I get so happy it's gay but whatever. I think I've turned into the kind of person I used to detest. But whatever, not really going to care because it's all so good right now <3 Miles is going into army soon though, like REALLY REALLY REALLY SOON. It's depressing. Okay not going to think about that now. I'll deal with it when Monday comes. For now, I still have him all to me <3 hahahaha.

Okay I have to go do homework naowww, bye byeeeeeeeee.