Where do I even begin?

Feels like I just came back, but it's already been a week. So much happened. Clubbing and hanging out with the girlfriends, doing work, fencing(still, no break even after comps) and spending time with you. I'm still in this dreamlike state over you, which is a good thing. I had a week to rest, not sure if what I've been doing for the past week is considered resting. I doubt. I am still so so tired, so much sleep debt to pay. I don't think I'll ever be able to get enough rest. I need to go away to somewhere peaceful and just sleep sleep sleep. When you have so much to think and worry about, it's hard to put it all away, shut my brain off and just sleep.

I am so tired.