It's back to school.

Today we had a talk on our Portfolio Development. Right now we're in the proposal phase of the project and I have not started, AT ALL. So naturally a panic attack sets in when everyone starts talking about it. Stress stress stress. Suddenly I'm confronted with this huge blank that's supposed to be my future. Or more accurately, maybe a question mark where my future is supposed to be. I don't get how some people how their whole lives mapped out for themselves. I can barely plan what to have for dinner sometimes, how do you expect me to plan for the rest of my life? I don't even know what I want to do, where I want to go. I have no clue where to start. So with all these question marks stabbing into my brain, it's no wonder I am so stressed out I can barely think.

All I can say is thank god for fencing. Without it, sometimes I think I'd be lost. I went to training feeling really stressed but I came out feeling loads better albeit more tired. I gained more perspective during training and it helped to calm me down and helped me think better. Sports is good, everyone should do sports so they get the release of endorphins and everyone will feel better (:

Sigh, work work work nic work.