My Anxieties and how I aim to overcome them

well. really what are anxieties. they're stupid things that we worry our bloody head about. they're the things that keep us awake at night, keep us from eating, keep us from going about our daily life. but why do we worry about such things? probably beacause they would impact our life in one way or another.

emotional
hmmm. emotional anxieties

-im feeling kinda emotionally screwed up right now. but as i said, i'd give myself till end of exams. now that they're over, no more wallowing in the mud like a pig. im gonna get my life back on track and im trying to tell you that im better off on my own.

-the wax that holds my beehive together seems to be weakening and there seems to be nothing that i can do about it. unfortunately. or maybe its all for the better. maybe'll things'll work out and we'll better off.

academic
academic anxieties

-well now that exams are over. nothing to worry about.

-actually no that's nto entirely true. i have this attitude about exams. as soon as i hand up my exam script to the examiner i'll be like alright, im done with it and i never want to see it again. but the fact is, you cant escape the truth. it'll comechasing after you. pretty soon all the skeletons in your closet are going to have to be exposed. so basically, im trying to say and im getting grey hair worrying about my results and how im gonna tell my parents.

-trying to transfer out. waiting for my results to come out. so yeahh. aditional pressure.

-now im not worried about me, worried about my younger sis. will she make it in st nicks? or is she gonna be another disgraced saint like me. hope she pulls through, keep up with the flow.

social life
anxieties of a socialite? hha. no not really

-they say secondary life is where you find your true friends. in jc they get more shallow and in university its too competitve. so yeahh. through the emotional rollercoaster ive just experienced, ive found friends who have stuck by me through thick and thin, and ive found friends fall into the 'hi-and-bye' category. seriously, next to family, friends are one of the most important things you can possess. they're the ones who'll pick you up and comfort you. tell you its gonna be alright even if it wont. im a pretty open person so all the people who know will pretty much know everything about me. im an open book. what you see is what you get. this can work to your advantage or disadvantage. in my case i think it works to my disadvantage. since everyone knows everything about me, they blab to the whole wide world, backstab me. ive experienced that many times. its gotten so that you cant trust anyone anymore. its not that you dont want to trust but because you dont know who you can trust. im just like too nice for my own good i suppose. indirect self praise. hha.

yupp. and im supposed to be a carefree happy go lucky person at this age. like hello. im in the prime of my life, my youth. IM NOT SUPPOSED TO HAVE LIKE ANY WORRIES AT ALL. humph. so much for being young, innocent, sweet and naive.