everything's screwed lately. emotionally screwed up. i need to express myself somewhere. bottled up feelings. mad mutterings. feelings i'll never be able to tell you. not now. not anymore.

>>my expressions
you keep tugging at my heart strings and i hate you for it.
you're worth every tear i cried
my wish is that you be madly loved by the one you choose
when i need you, you're only almost here and i know thats not enough
bruised and battered by your words
here i am once again, im torn into pieces
because of you, i never strayed too far from the sidewalk
i cannot cry because i know thats weakness in your eyes
im forced to fake a smile and a laugh every day of my life
my heart cant possibly break when it wasnt even whole to begin with
my weakness is that i cared too much
but i cant escape the truth, that i'll never be with you
just thinking of you brings a smile to my face and tears to my eyes
the touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever i fall
would you hold me in your arms and say you'll never leave me
so kiss me and smile for me, tell me that you'll wait for me
i wanna continue living in the past, the way it used to be
everything's so beautiful when im with you
thanks for the sweet memories, i'll never forget them
i cant see me loving nobody but you for all my life
i tried to be perfect cos i know you're worth it

just bear with me. i need to express my emotions :D