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Tuesday, October 18, 2005 @ 11:31 AM
My Anxieties and how i aim to overcome them
My Anxieties and how I aim to overcome them
well. really what are anxieties. they're stupid things that we worry our bloody head about. they're the things that keep us awake at night, keep us from eating, keep us from going about our daily life. but why do we worry about such things? probably beacause they would impact our life in one way or another. emotional hmmm. emotional anxieties -im feeling kinda emotionally screwed up right now. but as i said, i'd give myself till end of exams. now that they're over, no more wallowing in the mud like a pig. im gonna get my life back on track and im trying to tell you that im better off on my own. -the wax that holds my beehive together seems to be weakening and there seems to be nothing that i can do about it. unfortunately. or maybe its all for the better. maybe'll things'll work out and we'll better off. academic academic anxieties -well now that exams are over. nothing to worry about. -actually no that's nto entirely true. i have this attitude about exams. as soon as i hand up my exam script to the examiner i'll be like alright, im done with it and i never want to see it again. but the fact is, you cant escape the truth. it'll comechasing after you. pretty soon all the skeletons in your closet are going to have to be exposed. so basically, im trying to say and im getting grey hair worrying about my results and how im gonna tell my parents. -trying to transfer out. waiting for my results to come out. so yeahh. aditional pressure. -now im not worried about me, worried about my younger sis. will she make it in st nicks? or is she gonna be another disgraced saint like me. hope she pulls through, keep up with the flow. social life anxieties of a socialite? hha. no not really -they say secondary life is where you find your true friends. in jc they get more shallow and in university its too competitve. so yeahh. through the emotional rollercoaster ive just experienced, ive found friends who have stuck by me through thick and thin, and ive found friends fall into the 'hi-and-bye' category. seriously, next to family, friends are one of the most important things you can possess. they're the ones who'll pick you up and comfort you. tell you its gonna be alright even if it wont. im a pretty open person so all the people who know will pretty much know everything about me. im an open book. what you see is what you get. this can work to your advantage or disadvantage. in my case i think it works to my disadvantage. since everyone knows everything about me, they blab to the whole wide world, backstab me. ive experienced that many times. its gotten so that you cant trust anyone anymore. its not that you dont want to trust but because you dont know who you can trust. im just like too nice for my own good i suppose. indirect self praise. hha. yupp. and im supposed to be a carefree happy go lucky person at this age. like hello. im in the prime of my life, my youth. IM NOT SUPPOSED TO HAVE LIKE ANY WORRIES AT ALL. humph. so much for being young, innocent, sweet and naive.
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Monday, October 10, 2005 @ 7:00 PM
everything's screwed lately. emotionally screwed up. i need to express myself somewhere. bottled up feelings. mad mutterings. feelings i'll never be able to tell you. not now. not anymore.
>>my expressions you keep tugging at my heart strings and i hate you for it. you're worth every tear i cried my wish is that you be madly loved by the one you choose when i need you, you're only almost here and i know thats not enough bruised and battered by your words here i am once again, im torn into pieces because of you, i never strayed too far from the sidewalk i cannot cry because i know thats weakness in your eyes im forced to fake a smile and a laugh every day of my life my heart cant possibly break when it wasnt even whole to begin with my weakness is that i cared too much but i cant escape the truth, that i'll never be with you just thinking of you brings a smile to my face and tears to my eyes the touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever i fall would you hold me in your arms and say you'll never leave me so kiss me and smile for me, tell me that you'll wait for me i wanna continue living in the past, the way it used to be everything's so beautiful when im with you thanks for the sweet memories, i'll never forget them i cant see me loving nobody but you for all my life i tried to be perfect cos i know you're worth it just bear with me. i need to express my emotions :D
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Thursday, October 06, 2005 @ 3:42 AM
If I could have 3 wishes granted..
If i could have 3 wishes granted they would be...
hmmmm. rather corny topic. hha. master i understand that it is absolutely nescessary for us to blog but couldnt you give us a more interesting topic? no offence master. i shall let my imagination run wild then. Most common wishes that people would wish for.. - immorality - infinite riches - fame - to have another million wishes granted i wouldnt wish for immorality as death is what gives meaning to life. without death, people would be living for nothing. all our life we either dread or anticipate the D-Day, if we take that away, wouldnt life be meaningless? i might consider infinite riches but if you had infinite riches. you wouldnt appreciate anything you have and take it all for granted. never be complacent. whatever you have now could be taken away from you in a blink of an eye. fame. this is one worth considering. however if you were famous beyond your wildest dreams, you would never have a moment of peace. the paparazzi and shit would always be on your trail. you would even have to worry about locking yourself in the toilet. some crazy stalker might have planted a webcam there or could be peeping in through the window. you never know... is is really worth it giving up your life or peace and privacy for a life of fame where you'll never be left alone? hmmmm. having another million wishes granted. what would i do with another million wishes? by then i'll be so bored of it all, i might wish all my wishes gone or wish myself dead. My three wishes... i believe in simplicity. im easy to satisfy. 1) just get me a boat 2) a credit card with no limit 3) a supply of gourmet food to last a lifetime when i have these then i'll be happy. i'll just run away from it all. i'll spend my life with my loved one exploring foreign exotic islands. im a hopeless romantic. oh and it'll be nice if i could achieve self actualization. i want to know what im here on this earth for, do it well and share it with someone that i love. well master, i leave your my blog entry in your hands. dont tear it apart. padawan nicolette taking off.
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Wednesday, October 05, 2005 @ 1:12 PM
SLEEPOVER
SLEEPOVER
hurr cell slpover. it was just great hha yeahh. FOOD WAS SUPERB. we were just sitting down and waiting to be served and just fooling ard the hse trying to book the toilet bowl seat. hha. it's this white seat that like really small and looks smthin like a toiletbowl seat. so that's why we nicknamed it that. yeahh and dosent have like four proper legs so it'll will roll ard and it's quite hard to stay on cuz thr's no grip. hahahha. joy happens to be fast so she booked that seat. moohahaha. then we EVIL cell mates as usual. consisting o EVAN. ME. CLARE. CHARLENE. e others were nice. well these EVIL ppl started pushing her ard and joy was like hanging on to e sides for dear life. man. and EVIL EVIL EVIL me started to get brainy and took my cam and started filming her. and camera conscious joy raised her legs to block the bloody lens. and when we rewatched it. it was nthin near conservative. hahahha. the food consisted of nice JUICY CHICKEN WINGS. really shiok pls. but damn. i was on diet. i only ate one. so so GUAII ME. hurr damn nice can. hha. plus spagetti(my ORDER) heh yeahh. it was really good. but i counldn't eat much. after eating we had this BREAKER GAME. like breakdancing(sorta la yeahh) hha the we were basically FLOR JOY AND ME. the rest were like audience. plus EVIL EVAN stole e toilet bowl. hurrhurr yeahh. and she was pushed to like the balcony. cos as joy claims she was restricting her space to do her handstands. whatever joyy. i bet you have evil motives. hha. me and flor were like TRYING to do the FREEZE THING. like u balance ur whole body on the side o ur head. and ur legs are crooked. hanging down like limp chinken legs. oo nasttyy. i was talking to HIM and my LOVELY DARLING CELL MATES kept teasing me. after awhile i just gave up. all in all we slept at 4. didnt make it to 5. only CHAR. ALICIA. JOY AND ME. managed to stay awake. we got really horny and high.(ME AND JOY) charlene and alicia were too YOUNG. hha the coke was making it's way to my brain. making me a lil retarded and TOO HIGH. hha yeahh. laughing like some hyena. and talking abt WHIPPED CREAM. but we couldnt find whipped cream. (we checked e fridge) so CHOCOLATE SAUCE HAD TO DO. (well actually i was checking the fridge for alcohol. there wasnt any. damn.) mm HORNY SHIT. hha. NTH HAPPENED THOUGH. if u don't understand nthin. u're too young. hha yea. THEN AFTER SLPOVER THE NEXT MORNING. had breakfast. GOOD BREAKFAST. then had a time o torturing sesame. THE HOUSE PET. HAMSTER. hha. and we were debating whether hamster are nocturnal. which ended up as YES. okay. will do.after went home. ME JOY FLOR. WENT TO PLAY POOL. OR WANTED TO.CUZ IWANTED TO BE HONEST. and told the auntie we were 14. which was UNDERAGED. sigh i can be rather moronic sometimes so flor left. SO WE WENT TO E ARCADE INSTEAD. play this shooting game. hands were like so tired.we gave up. play DAYTONA(OR HOWEVER U SPELL IT) this racing game. I LOST. damn hahahha. we played a few la yeahh. then para para.( IT'S A REALLY SPASTIC GAME REALLY IF NO ONE TOLD U.) HHA YEAHH. waving our arms like some moronic fool. so we got bored and went to e church studio where we agn TRY to do our breaking stunts. i was trying to teach JOY the spinney thingy. which JOY thinks is just silliness cos she CANT DO IT! HAH. i gave up teaching her after a while hurr OBVIOUSLY. so i practiced freeze instead instead. its self inflicted torture. JOY was practicing her handstands. bahhs i dont care i cant do it. you hear me JOY? I DONT CARE! mm aft that went to meet the parentals for lunch.
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@ 12:56 PM
10 ways to turn people off
Nicolette's foolproof guide to turning people off. You're definitely sure to repel away people if you follow the following rules. Success guaranteed. 1) Dig your nose in public. 2) Go around proclaiming Hitler and his goodness 3) Scratch your armpits 4) Walk around cradling a skunk 5) Don't take a bath for a week 6) Imitate William Hung 7) Shave off your eyebrows 8) Spit torrents of saliva as you speak 9) Communicate with everyone in code 10) Drooling in public Come back and thank me when you're successful and everyone treats you like a freak.
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